I’ve been writing about how awesome and smart and progressive I am (well, maybe not that exactly, but sometimes it feels like that…”Hey world, look at how great I’m doing! Validate me!” Not that there’s anything wrong with that….) and I thought I should probably write a bit about the other side of the coin.
The other side of the coin has a poop emoji* on it.
I hate the poop emoji.
*This is not a blog about poop.
I don’t like feeling unhappy. That’s excruciatingly obvious, but what I mean is that there are times when my unhappiness isn’t something I can sit with quietly, or distract myself from, or however people deal with that. This is less of a, “staring forlornly out the window at the rain, while holding a cup of tea” unhappy.
Sometimes it is something I can deal with (the “window/rain/tea” unhappy). But those times when I feel jittery and also nearly unable to move…when there’s no way to make a decision…when I feel in my very bones that I should be doing something, but I can’t figure out what. THAT sucks.
The great news for me is that the feeling never lasts long, and it’s not destructive. It’s just excessively uncomfortable. Other folks have this feeling for way, way, way too long. And good god, folks, I cannot even begin to imagine. Massive sympathy and respect, and a Hunger Games salute thrown in.
I keep thinking I need a set of orders for myself. Like, “Okay Jen: this evening you will likely get into that jitter-funk thing again. When you do, here’s your mission…”
Which I can do. I mean, I think I can.
But then, every time I think of it, I want to create a universal checklist for people in similar situations…which is nigh-on impossible. But, I wonder if we could do one better. Like, Bingo cards?
Here: have an “Everything sucks bingo” card that’s ready to use, and the “Everything sucks bingo card – home edition” (blank) that you can customize!
I’ve managed to cheer myself up a bit, writing this. And I’m looking forward to using my bingo card tonight. Let me know if you use either of these, and how it worked out for you.